I am doing the best I can

Ugh. I am so tired for some reason. The energy comes and goes and right now it is definitely gone. I just thought I was sore on Tuesday - Wednesday my trainer worked me so hard I could barely move the next day. I had read this article about how you should "work your muscles to failure" - meaning that on your last rep you should barley be able to complete it. So, I tried this and it almost killed me. I don't know if that hardcore work out is for me. Think I will just stick with the medium-version of the workout. It made me not even want to go to the gym on Thursday. I decided to just go with that feeling. I had a massage that morning and just decided to take the rest of the day off. I laid around and watched The 0ffice on dvd. Such a great show. I felt pretty useless by the end of the day. I did actually do a little jewelry work last night so that was something.


Another thing I did get around to yesterday was seeing a studio space that is for lease. They had three units available. Fortunately I liked the smallest and cheapest the very best. It has windows, green walls and an a/c unit. It is about the same size as my office but with more wall space. I think it could totally work for me. Dad said he could help me rig a ventilator. I can do it month to month so I wouldn't be bound to anything. I just gotta consider it a little more. If it gets rented while I am thinking, that's cool. I will take it as a message from the universe. Or whatever.

Still today I am having trouble with the energy. At least I made it to the gym today. I don't know why I am surprised. January is always a tough month for me. Just a lack of motivation and energy this time every year. Melissa suggests I am cocooning and gave me a birthday card with butterflies on it. Dixie gave me a photograph she took of a caterpillar for my birthday. I put them both on my bulletin board to remind me. You can't always be a butterfly. Sometimes you just gotta be a stupid caterpillar lying on your couch in your sweats watching tv shows on dvd. As long as I keep the house clean, I am fine! :)